At the beginning of any new endeavor, there is usually a mixture of excitement and nervousness. That “what if” dances in the back of your mind telling you things could go terribly wrong. It is odd that so often, one does not consider that things could go wonderfully right. Tell Me More!
Our family has spent much of the last several years in a kind of solitude. This time away from socializing enabled us to reflect upon our emotional, mental, and spiritual states of being. We made some discoveries, corrected some harmful behaviors and established some healthy boundaries. Unfortunately, the impact of our withdraw has not all been positive. Some of our friends and family felt neglected by our lack of communication and effort. While we didn’t want to hurt anyone, we simply intended to strengthen our bond as a family, we did and we can own that. Finding a way to explain why we are no longer in contact with many of the people we once were close to has been challenging; we feel that Francis Mallman explains it best, “I seldom invite people to have lunch or dinner with me but when I do they’re really chosen because I can’t spend time with people I don’t enjoy. I can’t do it anymore its theater. I make choices and that’s a beautiful thing about growing up, learning to say no, in a nice way you say no. I have this friend of mine…and we, you know, we parted. We just went different ways in our lives. Once he came back to me, he says, Francis, you don’t like me anymore, and I said no, it’s not that I don’t like you, we’ve chosen different styles of life… I still have these beautiful souvenirs of all the things we did together and how close we were and so on, but the truth is, it’s not that you bore me but I don’t enjoy talking to you anymore, I don’t want to fight with you but you know there is nothing in common between your life and mine nowadays…You know growing up has a bit to do with that, to be able to tell the truth, to show who you are, even if it hurts.”
Perhaps the space between us and those of our past relationships has grown too vast to bridge right now, which, is okay. However, we fully intend to take our time and patiently fill that space with a stronger foundation with those we desire to reconnect with, but if that is not possible we will allow that space to be filled with acceptance. We understand, sometimes, you may not fit into one each other’s lives. Growing apart and finding that you are completely different people is just a part of life. Maybe you find yourself in a similar position as we have or maybe you are the one wondering why someone has chosen to walk out of your life, either way, our hope is that this brings a different light to the situation and provides some peace.
Until next time…
Her story is one of rising from the ashes, reborn and ready for greatness.
Flowing like gentle waters, she confidently navigates this world with purpose, meeting obstacles with silent power and roaring presence.
Allowing what comes naturally for her to be the mark of envy, knowing humility should never limit ability. Vanity holds no value for her, as she is keenly aware of its lies.
Embracing her humanity she is open and balanced, understanding the answers all seek are nothing more than relative. Standing firm, she refuses to be bound by the pursuits of the weary.
Intentionally, she opens her heart, wholly, as an offering of genuine energy, embracing all who choose to enter with reverence.
For she has been the object of disdain and knows the power of its thralldom too well. Its unforgiving force has weighed upon her many times before yet is unable to conquer her still.
When her time has come, graciously, she will leave this world behind like the light of the setting sun, allowing her brilliance to fade into the darkness and her legacy to be written in the stars.
After a rather emotionally charged day, filled with plenty of internal struggle over making the “wrong” decisions, I found myself in a rather curious position. I had, of course,
We did it, we finally did it! In March of 2016, Ty and I crossed the Atlantic ocean on an AirFrance Boeing 777 and began the anniversary trip of our dreams in Ireland!
By E.A. Chaney
I am convinced my heart is a rebel.
It does not listen to me; it wants unapologetically.
The never ceasing betrayer, my heart is as wild as the sea.
Why does it long so intensely for things that cannot be.
by E.A Chaney
How twisted is my soul that relish this sorrow?
How tainted that I cherish it?
The unrelenting force of it crushing my being into a million irrecoverable pieces,
yet here I lie soaking in the macabre thoughts that dance with delight in my mind.
A young woman I have come to admire greatly for a few reasons shared a post recently on her social media page challenging her Facebook circle to say one thing they love about themselves. Since it had been an area of struggle for me for decades to inwardly or outwardly speak love to myself, I decided to participate. Which led to me reflecting on how common it is to neglect oneself of self love and appreciation and what it takes to change it. I realized for me it was a story of struggle like it is for many others.
I have always had an interest in philosophy, long conversations, gazing out upon the vast starlit night sky, regarding life and the meaning of it all has always been one of my favorite past times. Life is a multifaceted and awe-inspiring phenomenon. Throughout the centuries, many have attempted to honor and/or understand this phenomenon with spiritual pursuits and quests for knowledge;
“Though the future was unclear through the storms we persevered.
Battered and broken is what we were, but like the Phoenix we re-emerged.
Hand in hand we walk our path knowing this battle may not be our last.
And although the day to fight may come again,
together is where you will find us in the end.”
“The journey may be unclear; nevertheless, clarity awaits those who dare to voyage into the unknown.” -E.A. Chaney
I am guilty of letting the opinions of others hold me back in the past. I am also guilty of allowing fear to navigate my life from time to time. It wasn’t until I realized fear wasn’t going anywhere but it was up to me to decide it’s usefulness. Fear is just as likely to be a powerful motivator as it is to be debilitating; the good news is, the choice is ours!